Have you felt the butterflies? I have and they do exist! There has only been one, truthfully, who I've kissed and who kissed me back. Only one who captures my heart, locks it away in a magnitude of proportions that can not be emulated. Only one I love, am in love with, I am true to.... There is only one who reciprocates. Only one who loves me, tells me so, is in love with me... the type of love that you've hear about, read about, wish for ...so innocent, so just, so pure. It is ours and no human being can take that away from us, no triangles, no human obstacles. My "preppy gangsta" chases after me through my youth, makes graceful attempts to woo me in our teenage years, and finally catches me and wins my affections at the onset of my flourishing career... just when I've made the decision to move into Manhattan. Frankie shines in in a time when Gotti rules NYC and "wanna-be Mafioso's" do not exist. "There has always been a special place in my heart for you!" He is mine but I have to share him. He is loved by many across ethnicities, income brackets, genders because he brings a euphoric high to all and can alter a mood with just a chuckle, a smile, a comedic reply! But ... Frankie's life is not easy... his eyes dim dark as he is a troubled soul... From addiction to abuse, a glimpse into his past reveals all. Frankie. Just. Frankie. This prequel is our love story. My truth. His truth. It is my most significant relationship- a romance that occurs when I am in my twenties that tragically ends. The tragedy that befalls me leads me to "this quest to get back what has been taken from me so long ago" as revealed in Book Second: God Died at the Spa. I am a Whore By Default.