I truly believe God has led me to share with you my testimony. Hopefully this will help you out. I would like to believe I am helping you, and it pleases my soul. I have forgiven and do feel at peace in my soul after writing. I thank God daily. I would pray over every chapter, and I have to be honest, a lot of crying. For me it is hard to keep that inner peace. I easily slip into negative thinking and blaming myself. Daily I pray that God will use me to help someone else in need.