This is a personal journey with many beginnings and endings. It is about all of my hopes and dreams and fears that were secrets: Love and forgiveness, new beginnings, grief and loss, sports and Olympic aspirations - an honest reflection of my personal experiences. In my search for love and understanding, I exposed my heart through deeply personal stories about my life, reliving grief, loss, happiness and peak moments to understand my journey. Each chapter is a vignette of my life and reflects moments that affected my emotions, behavior, thoughts and perceptions and, ultimately, my life.