""I used to call myself a poet and a girl I haven't been either in many many years and yet I've started this endeavor. I just want to tell my story...to myself...to my child...to the world They haven't heard me in a while and I think I have something to say. Ex-Devoted cult member...Jesus Freak Ex-Devoted daughter... Ex-Pushover Friend... Half-White Half-Black Half-Alive at 33 years old My Jesus Year Woah...that never occurred to me until now, I think I still thought I was 32 I am recognizing my age Recognizing my body and mind changes And recognizing the loss Do you know how lonely it is to grow up thinking you have a mother only to learn that you did not?""