[About the Book]
Diagnosed with alcoholism at the age of thirty-nine, the author confronts his life with raw honesty in this harrowing memoir.
From childhood, he endured domestic violence, the absence of a mother’s love, and the suicides of his brothers. Raised in an environment that was little different from that of an orphan, he survived by numbing his loneliness and hatred with alcohol.

In this book, the author seeks to answer the question, “Why do people become addicted to alcohol?”-not through science, but through the lived experience of a single human being.
For those struggling with alcoholism, adult children of dysfunctional families, or anyone bearing the scars of family trauma, this story offers both empathy and hope.

Abuse. Addiction. Loneliness-and rebirth.
This is more than a story about addiction; it is a searing nonfiction work that portrays the struggle of human suffering and the journey toward recovery.

[Author Biography]
Yutaka Kazami
Born in 1950 in Kitami City, Hokkaido. At the age of 39 he was diagnosed with alcohol dependence and was admitted to a specialized hospital. After being discharged, he joined the Mitaka City Sobriety Association and later the Tokyo Sobriety Shinsei Association. In 2006 he established a self-support center called “Ibasho” operated by the NPO Keio Sobriety Association. As its chairperson, he supports people seeking recovery from alcohol dependence and their families.