"I love y'all okay." my dad pushed me and my little sister Baby into the closet. "Angel you remember how I showed you to use this." he held out the small gun and handed it to me. "I can't do it." I ran up to him and clung onto his shirt tears streaming out of my eyes. "Shhh...Shhh it's okay baby." he lifted my head and looked me in the eyes. "I need you to hold it down for me okay?" he wiped the tears from my eyes.