If you're always thinking that the next thing will make you happy ... what happens to right now? Seventeen-year-old Sam, who has cerebral palsy, wants some control over his life. When he is excluded from yet another school trip and has to spend the day with his bully, it's the tipping point. In his campaign for change, Sam gets more than he bargained for. But if you're always thinking that the next thing will make you happy, what happens to right now? A debut own-voices coming-of-age YA novel by young Irish screenwriter and author, Alan Carrigan, who has quadriplegic cerebral palsy. An authentic, witty and nuanced story with a powerful, universal message, about unlikely friendships and the realities of living with disability. Simultaneously hard-hitting and heartwarming, with shades of Out of My Mind and Elle McNicoll.