F**king Chaos is a poetry collection about first love at its most fierce. Tender and brutal. Innocent at the start, then heavier with every day emotions grow faster than courage, and the words you need most stay trapped in your throat. These poems live in the space between HERE and THERE, between touch and distance, between craving and silence. They speak of longing that doesn't fade, of memories that loop like a chorus, and of the kind of love that can feel like home one moment and like free fall the next. If you remember your first time. Your first "I love you" you were scared to say. The sentences you never spoke, even though they screamed inside you this book will feel uncomfortably familiar. Inside, you'll find poems about: first love and the chaos it brings obsession, absence, and the ache of waiting closeness that turns into distance shame, tenderness, and the aftermath of desire thoughts that won't let go, even years later This is not a polished love story. It's the raw record of a heart learning too much, too fast. If you find a piece of yourself here, it means you're not alone.