For all who have wondered . . . What was it really like? This is the fascinating and absolutely true first-person narrative of an extraordinary author of his descent into the morass of death, drugs, and sex that was the American agony of Vietnam. This is his confessional—a full and candid recounting of years at war, drugs and debauchery in that surreal purgatory. Jay Dee Ruybal came home, his body nearly intact, his soul rudely shattered, and his world str