The book started 40 years ago, the very moment, I first fell in love with RiTa Marie, only to literally lose every touch, every word, every glance, every moment spent, whether with other pep-squad members or just, we two alone. To lose within the mind and heart was worse !!! though how does one know what or rather who was lost if no memory exists. One memory did, I was peering through the rear window of a car, staring at my own back, never seeing the face of the young lady in a lover's embrace. Too what good!!! I could name every young lady back to the first grade, which I liked or thought I liked, she was never there. On November 8th, 2001 at 4:20am, A Dream... her eyes, her silhouette, her name on my lips, as I bolted to sit-up, a life time of pain anger, negative memories, all ripped from within, at the same moment, love, not just what was lost but a mix of passionate-unconditional love, all within the span of 4 syllables, her name!!! next 6 months, memories love, thoughts, from pencil to page. My son died, as did my heart!!!