A childhood lost... Awakened by a nightmare, a new father finds comfort in watching his new son sleep. The little boy and his beloved toy car become a doorway into the dad's memories of childhood and his own toy jeep. The nightmares become the unintended passageway to understanding the trauma of his childhood. Along with happy memories of friends and loved ones, there were bittersweet experiences and escalating abuse. The intertwining of these threads paints a picture that exposes the roots of the father's nightmare. The evolution of Eddie into Edward wasn't easy. Toy Jeeps: A Father's Legacy explores the pain, hope, love, and fear that confronted the author upon entry into parenthood. This memoir shines a light into the lasting effects of physical abuse, emotional neglect, and toxic masculinity. This is a story of hope and overcoming adversity.