In 2029 Neustadt, Herman Hesses diary unveils a world suffocating under the Pandemic of Attention. a global crisis born from humanity's inability to confront their own thoughts, leading to the abstraction from now. The story begins at the night he stumbles upon a mysterious drug dealer who goes by many names; Morpheus, Hafez and the Big Bang. After this encounter he finds himself in a funny situation of not being able to capture himself or his experience in words. Haunted by two major questions; who am i? and what is this conscious experience? poor guy makes his attempt more hopeless as he starts using more complex and precise words and repeating the same truth over and over with different words. however, as he ventures beyond the veil of thoughts, he discovers the astonishing richness of mundane experiences. Ultimately, he uncovers a radical way to break the spell of thoughts; by beheading himself! dissolving the barrier of subject and object. looking for the looker and not finding it