THE INSTANT SUNDAY TIMES BESTSELLER 'Brutally honest as well as poetic' DOLLY ALDERTON 'Necessary, urgent and totally original' AFUA HIRSCH 'Intimately life-affirming . . . tackles enormously complex questions' CALEB FEMI Someone once asked me how I’d want to be remembered. I said, ‘As the boy who grew.’ Diagnosed with ADHD as a child, Jordan Stephens found his teens and twenties to be a whirl of career success and nurturing friendships but also a brutal pattern of self-harm, hedonism, destructive coping mechanisms and heartbreak. When he tried to live up to his own damaged expectations and his world exploded, he allowed himself to explore the pain he’d repressed his entire life. Unsparingly digging into the fear, tenderness and trauma, Jordan Stephens discovers what it means to be a modern man and how the price we pay for love, in all its forms, is worth it.