After 50 years of living Cathy does something most of us do at age twenty-one, she grew up. With the help of her psychiatrist she discovers she had lived her life being all things to all people - parents, husbands and lovers, and, of course, her children. In the process she had lost herself. Join Cathy on this journey through tears and laughter as she discovers her true self. Her story begins with a failed attempt at suicide. It is from the bottom of this very dark hole that she must find her way out. Cathy learns that she has lived her life pretending she is on the "Good Ship Lollipop" when she is really on the Titanic. Even though her life has been a very rocky road, God has planted some flowers along the way. This story is for all women who wake up in their mid-life and discover they haven't been living.